Paintball or My Knee Hurts

Today I went paintballing with Ryan, Andrew, and some other people whom I did not know. It was at some dudes house/land outside of Oak Bluff. It was also raining a shit load all day and therefore the forest area was both soaking wet and mud filled. That didn't put a damper on the good times however. We generally played just team vs team games all the time but it was still great stuff. I think that my jacket must be paintball repellent because they would never burst upon impact with it... the only ones that exploded were the ones that hit my legs and hand. Overall, I did pretty ok, usually surviving until the end, ie) being the last man alive on my team... I did manage to smoke Ryan really hardcore this one time as he was facing the opposite direction and I did a head long charge at him firing on all cylinders. I got SOOOO much paint on him.... well... maybe not a ton, but enough that it was clear that he was "dead." I seem to have lost a part of my puffer there, as I got home and the medicine part had fallen out. Not that I really use the thing much, but it's better to be safe then sorry. I will have to get Ryan to try to get it back from the dude, as he sees him at work occasionally. The only problem with the day was that the visors on the safety masks kept fogging up, making it hard to see anything or anyone. I know I would have done way better if I'd of been able to see what I was shooting at. Overall, it was a very muddy day filled with sharp pains, booters, and smokies. Not too shabby overall!
Last night I was able to finally use my gift certificate for Boston Pizza that I had received at Christmas time. Because I wasn't paying for it, I had more food then I would have usually. It was alright I suppose. Going with Ryan and Tina and Andrew and Sam really made the situation awkward. I was the 5th wheel so to speak... Sometimes I wonder why Tina still goes out with Ryan, as he constantly says things to piss her off and tends to ignore her in the group setting... Well, he is either ignoring her or talking to her like a 2 year old puppy. I hate that crap. I would and have never talked to a person like that. Even girlfriends. I refuse to talk fucking baby talk.
Friday night sucked ass because I got off work early in order to do something, but couldn't get a hold of anyone! Everyone had already gone out I guess... I did have the option to see "The Day After Tomorrow" with Matt, Kostas, Jon, Niziol but did not want to... I ended up just playing more Star Wars: KOTOR. Have I mentioned that that is a super sweet game? Cause it is.
Oh yeah, before I forget. My knee hurts because I bumped it into the Co2 cartridge on the paintball gun when I was running.

It's Wednesday or Playing Video Games Again

So it's Wednesday now... whatever that means. The past couple of days have been days off for me, so I have been playing some serious video games. It's been a long time (last fall/winter) since I have done so. Even then, it was pretty much last summer that I was playing them with any degree of frequency. I guess I just needed something different and interesting to keep me interested. Star Wars: KOTOR fits that bill nicely. It's got a great story and I'm having a ton of fun with my kick ass jedi and his green lightsaber. I've had it a week now and have amassed 12.5 playing hours! That's not too bad for me! In the old days, I would do that in 2 days, but not anymore... the whole working thing tends to get in the way... oh yeah, that and the social life thing... oh wait... I guess I should play as much now as I can, because the minute I am no longer single again, the video game time will drop drastically...
Last night, Ryan and Andrew came over and we played some NHL 2K4 till about 3 am. It was hella fun as we were all learning the game together, so no one was drastically better... although Ryan did end up winning all the games we played. Ryan and I had a 2-2 tie going into a shootout, but neither one of us could figure out the control mechanics well enough to end the 15 minute plus long barrage of penalty shot action. The other game of note came when I played Andrew to a 6-5 loss in a shootout. We had a crazy back and forth game through the overtime period. It was so intense that we were both sweating. Even Ryan was having a helluva time just watching it! The game is probably one of the best playing/most realistic hockey titles I've ever seen/played. So many little details are in there that it truly makes playing it fun. Battling along the boards, setting up plays, neutral zone space... all are unique to this game and all add up to awesome.
Oh yeah, before I forget... my shift monday at work (where I made 33$ an hour) was filled with absolutely NO work. There was literally NOTHING to do! I spent the whole time finishing the Jack Layton book, watching TV, and pacing around. It was both refreshing, stimulating, and a huge waste of my time!

A Weekend of Adventure or Today I make $33 an hour!

This weekend actually proved to be full of adventure and fun... Well actually it was more or less full of drinking and video games, but whose counting?
Friday night, after work, I attended the 18th birthday of Stobart's sister at the Tijuana Yacht Club. Normally I hate that place (sort of) but I had a good time. That could also have been due to the tequila and beer I had. That and because I was really feeling down that day. The whole malaise thing was really getting to me... I guess I just needed to get out and DO something... It seemed to help a lot.
Interesting story. While dancing my white guy dance, Dave pointed out that a chick was "checking me out." I caught her eyes a few times and it did indeed seem like she was scoping out the I-Rock. When her group of friends danced closer to the group I was in, Dave told me to make a move. Now I'm not the most over-zealous guy so I just kind of tried to work out a plan of action. Bumping into her a few times while dancing, chatting it up all witty like, etc. I never did it... Eventually I just got a sudden cause of balls and went up to her and starting talking. Asking if I could buy her a drink met with a negatore. Learning a little about her was going ok until she said that she had to go to the bathroom. I waited around for a bit where we had been talking and eventually turned to look at the bathroom area, as she had been gone a while. I just happened to see her and a friend bolting from the area at warp speed. That's right folks, I was "shot down in flames!" Thinking back it might have had something to do with the way the part of the conversation went that was me asking to buy her a drink... synopsis.
Me: "So are you in need of a refill there?"
Her: "No, I've had enough already."
Me: "But I walked all the way from over there!" (pointing to the other side of the room)
Her: "That's only the other side of the room."
Me: "That's a long way!"
You see I figured that I was being cute and witty, while maybe I was being obtuse and stalkery... Oh well, we all get shot down sometimes.
Saturday after work I went to Matt's for a bit and shared in some free pizza. I also tried Splinter Cell 2: Pandora Tomorrow. It was hella sweet. Then we all went to the Charley... I thought it might be fun.... and it wasn't. Those guys basically still do the same stuff they've been doing since high school, only now with beer. They also still continue to bring up stories from that time period. Sitting around and telling old stories is fun for a while, but tends to drag on the nerves... I am so sick of hearing how one time I used the excuse "I have to help my mom move stuff" to get out of hanging out with them... That was like 8 years ago! Get over it! I don't even remember the situation or context anymore. Leave it to them to hold things against you for a decade. By them I am referring to Matt, Jon, Kostas, Adam. I thought maybe they'd changed a touch, but nope... I was wrong.... What makes this all worse is that I chose to hang out with them instead of Kari, Lee, Jay and Tyler. At least there I would have been in the company of people who are not the same as they were in high school. Then again, I didn't really know Kari or Tyler all that well (or in Kari's case, at all) back then.... Either way, it wouldn't have brought me down as much, what with them not being the types who feel the need to constantly bring each other down...
Sunday, after work and video games, I saw Shrek 2 with Ryan, Tina, Andrew, and Dave. It was alright but not amazing. I thought there was just too much attempting to reference pop culture. They threw as much at the wall as they could and only some of it stuck. Occasionally it was downright hilarious, other times, more annoying. Especially the end, when they all sang "Livin la vida loca." UGH. The worst part of the night was all the people talking during the movie... Especially those who felt the need to point out each pop culture reference they noticed... funny part was they only got the REALLY obvious ones, like the Justin Timberlake thing. They never got the more obscure ones, like the Fawlty Towers stuff. Oh yeah, apparently people now need to relate the story on screen to the person they are sitting beside... FUCKING HELL SHUT THE SHIT UP.
Today is a stat holiday. I work for 7 hours at double time and a half. That is $33 an hour! There is also no semi truck coming in or going out today... That means I will have no work to do. Sweet!

Buying an X-Box or I Hate "The Man"

I decided to finally bite the bullet and buy an x-box today... For a while I had decided against buying one... what with Microsoft being evil and all, but ended up being drawn in by the sheer amount of good games, the amount of people I know with one to play online against, and the great deal Future Shop had... errr... wait a minute...
I got there, and the free game they were giving with the system was sold out... The other stores did not have any either. I went to Best Buy and asked if they would match the deal. They said they wouldn't because FS was sold out! Even my old buddies who worked there wouldn't go against "the man" and do a guy a favour. Everyone was so brainwashed to do everything by the book. When I worked there (for 2 months) I did what was best, not always what "the man" told me too. Due to their lack of desire to help a brother out, I took my money to my other old place of employ, EB, and was given a great deal. While not being able to match the FS deal, my old co-workers helped me out. FS and Best Buy suck. Playing the games I picked up (Star Wars: KOTOR, ESPN NHL 2K4, and the pack ins Crimson Skies and Project Gotham Racing 2) was quite the experience, as the x-box has tremendous graphics (I expected similar to GameCube, but they are WAY better) I am looking forward to having a much wider variety of games to play now (when I have time). That and more adult and violent games... the kiddie stuff can wear thin after a while... Not that GameCube is bad or anything... it rules... just that the xbox had a great selection of games going for it... Should be good times!
I also FINALLY found the Police Academy Box Set today. Jay and I have been looking for it for quite a while now. 49$ for 7 movies... 17$ separately. The first 4 movies are pure gold, while the others... not so good... We watched the 7th one because neither one of us had seen it... damn was it garbage.... Utter shit with only a tiny amount of funny... which was all located with Commandant Lasard's confused old man gimmick. Overall it was a HUGE waste of time.... oh well...
Calgary in the Stanley Cup finals! Whoooooooo!

The Coming Darkness or How Could you NOT Vote for him?

This is going to be a very bi-polar post.
First of all, I want to talk about the rut that I have been in recently and how it has affected me. I haven't really done anything constructive for the past month. I have not done any real work on scripts or made an effort to get off my ass and try to start filmmaking. The only positive thing I have done is to begin a new workout schedule. 2 days of workouts followed by one day of rest. It seems to be positively affecting my physique and I am happy for that. With that in mind, neglecting the creative aspects of life is causing odd things to pop into my head, usually late at night as I am trying to go to sleep. Everyone has some sort of a fear of death, I am no different. Whenever I get to thinking on that subject, a chill and shudder run through my body. The thought of no longer having consciousness scares me. Who I am is embedded in what I have experienced, and if all of that were to cease to exist... well... it's scary to think about. The shudder and chill make me want to run. Towards what I am unsure, but it is clear that it is away from "the darkness." I believe that there is a point to existence and that is directly tied to belief in some sort of soul. What truly scares me is no longer being "me." Forgetting all that I have known and experienced. Alzheimer's, which affected my grandpa, is one of my deepest fears. The concept of who we are springs out of what we were and to lose all of that terrifies me. Ever since I had that "bad trip" or panic attack, the thought of passing out and never waking up crosses my mind at various intervals. I tend to lump that in with the fear of death. Normally, I can reason myself out of these kind of fears and anxieties, but lately it's been a little harder to do so. I am having to fall asleep with the TV on in order to not allow those fears to pop into my head. I think that my inactivity and relative intellectual stagnancy lately are the cause of these thoughts. It's gotten so that I am afraid to use any substance that might make me "lose my head" for fear of never getting it back. I know deep down that it would not happen, and the types of effects that substances cause are merely temporary, but the fear remains nonetheless. I am a firm believer in the power of the individual's mind to overcome anything, and I know that I can beat this, it's just harder than normal... I guess I just need to face the fears head on...
In addition to all of this, I have had the feeling of detachment from reality. It seems like the world and where I am is not really immediate. I was just kind of coasting on fumes... For example, I saw my new niece the other day, but instead of the visceral and life affirming situation it should have been, I just kind of drifted through the event. Sometimes, I feel intensely connected with "life" and that feeling is great... the feeling of detachment is not... Once again, I am convinced that this is related to my lack of skill deployment lately. I think that I need to have an intensely visceral experience to alleviate all of this... One of the most incredible things that happened to me in the past few years was during a Tai Chi class when I finally felt chi. I could feel an energy source around me and flowing through me, especially in my hands... It was a connection to something far larger than myself and was awesome... I need to get that back... I haven't been to a Tai Chi class in a while, due to the fact that my work schedule conflicts with class times... I really should practice on my own, but the lack of adequate home space and the stupid thoughts of people laughing at me in public space (or staring in general) cause me to have less desire to do so... I need to just get the omnipresent social anxieties that I tend to experience out of my head for good... In addition to the weights, I will add some tai chi practice into my schedule... perhaps on the days of rest? I think I would benefit from a renewed effort to meditate... I tried to get into it a while back when I was devouring eastern philosophy books, but had a hard time sitting still... I figet too much... I need to overcome that as well...
All of this talk seems a little negative or self-deprecating, I realize. It's just that I have intensely high standards for the person that I want to be and I don't think that I am meeting them right now... It stems from my lack of direct focus and less than stellar drive at times... To combat this will take effort, but I am up to the task...
Today, however, does seem to be a little better. I started back into writing and brainstorming and have gotten back to serious reading. I am currently engrossed in Jack Layton's book "Speaking Out: Ideas that work for Canadians." I must say that his ideas are so well though out and developed with concrete examples from his days on Toronto's city council that I can't see why anyone would NOT vote NDP in this coming election. Clean and healthy environment, increased focus on public health, stricter focus on legislation for the public good, and better financial accountability are all areas that he goes into in great detail. The major thing he is going to have to combat is the stereotype that the NDP raises taxes and creates huge deficits by starting massive government programs. This uneducated view, while having some basis in history, is untrue of the Jack Layton NDP. He believes that, in the realm of health care, for example, that immense savings can be accrued through greater focus on preventing illness rather than treating it... He advocates so many simple ideas that all contribute to the solution that it is insane that they are NOT already in use nationally. I could gush on and on about how brilliantly well written and developed his ideas in the book are, but it might seem like me trying to influence your federal vote... Buy the book (or borrow it from me if you are too cheap) and read for yourself... I know that I will vote NDP this election, and I think that I might just volunteer for our candidate too! (Assuming I don't run myself... which I have been debating with for a while now...) Getting involved is the catalyst for positive change.

The Wonderful World of Catch-Up or Chicken and Pizza

Let's see... Wednesday night I hung out with Dave and watched Akira Kurosawa's "Dreams." It had its moments but on the whole was a much better visual film than anything else. It was a collection of short stories that apparently were actual dreams Kurosawa had. Some of them were awesome and some sucked. The sucky ones tended to be the ones that hit you over the head with their themes. Like the post apocalyptic one where all the characters would look directly at the screen and say things like "if only man had realized the folly of nuclear power!" UGH!
Thursday I ended up having to work till midnight as all the freight was backed up from the blizzard. My job turned into a disaster area as two days of backlogged shipping was piled up everywhere. Oh yeah.. I also donated my old stereo to the CBC garage sale for Winnipeg Harvest. Hopefully it gets some good coin to feed the needy and stuff... While I spent about 180$ on it only 4 ish years ago, it didn't really play CDR's and was a shining example of "excess" in my life. I wanted a stereo with a remote so I could lay on the bed and not have to get up to change tracks or albums... Talk about lazy... It was my example of the needless consumer convenience lifestyle that sometimes pops in... Getting rid of it is a statement! Well... maybe if I were to over-dramatize the event it would be... I was just thinking of getting rid of something that I did not want and if that can help out someone else, even better!
Friday night, after work, Jay and I ordered some chicken and pizza from Papa Guido's. The place makes a damn fine (and cheap) meal. They're open till 2 am and as long as you pick up, are VERY reasonably priced. Even delivery is not bad! While scarfing the unhealthy food, we watched the Tenacious D TV show and the Vincent Price movie "The Last Man on Earth." Both of which were good. The Price movie was the basis for "The Omega Man" and seemingly for "Night of the Living Dead." It had some problems, ie) annoying voice overs and a too long flashback sequence, but on the whole was good stuff. What can I say about Tenacious D other than fucking funny.
I am thinking about getting a new TV... there are some good deals this weekend at the various electronic retailers, but I am just not sure that I feel like spending ANY money right now..... hmmmmm.... I guess it doesn't hurt to do a little shopping around and what not....

That was Ridiculously Fun or Wait a Minute, This is MAY!

Ryan, Andrew, and I all played some Chu Chu Rocket for the Dreamcast last night. I had never played it multiplayer and was pleasantly surprised to find it insanely fun. The concept is so simple it hurts. Each player has a space ship somewhere on the screen. Swarms of mice wander around and bounce of the walls. It's up to each player to place arrows on the ground to direct the mice into their ship. You can only place 3 arrows at a time. Whoever ends up with the most mice at the end wins! Complicating matters are cats that eat the mice. If one goes into your ship you lose mega points. I can't begin to tell you how much fun we had directing the cats into each other's ships. The game has a ton of strategy too! We must have played for 2.5 hours.
Why the hell is it snowing in May? Why are we getting a metre of the stuff? Why does it have to be super heavy wet snow? Why am I the only one here that can shovel it?
E3 2004 is shaping up so far to be hella sweet! Both the Nintendo DS and the Sony PSP look uber cool and the new Zelda for GC looks FREAKIN' AMAZING. Damn you E3 and your making me want stuff!!!!!

Two Movies in Two Days or Two GOOD Movies in Two Days

I assume that by reading the title of this post you know what I am about to discuss. I not only saw two movies in the past two days, but two GOOD ones. The first was The Corporation. Dave and I checked out the later show, which I was weary to go to due to my having to work the next morning at 6. Boy am I glad that I went though... the movie was phenomenal. It did its damnedest to cover as much as possible on the subject of the corporate structure and its effects on the world. I was most impressed with how it kept a degree of objectivity. While having a distinct slant (as all documentaries do) it allowed the talking heads with opposite opinions to elaborate on them enough to be presented as people with ideas, not just "the enemy." Some of the people made themselves out badly, but it was not accomplished through editing, it was of their own accord. Even people with "whacked out" ideas, like the guy who thinks that EVERYTHING on earth should be privatized (including trees and rivers) was allowed enough time to explain his idea that he seemed to have a degree of legitimacy. There was not really any demonization of the opposite opinioned people. The best part of seeing the film was that it recharged my batteries. By that I mean the part of me that gets outraged and wants to do something to effect change. The part of me that had been devouring books on political and world issues for the past few years. Unfortunately, the past two months or so have put that part on the backburner... This film yanked it right back. Even stronger now... I think that I will actually start taking part in more grassroots movements and such. I normally don't like to join in on protest marches and whatnot due to the amount of ignorance that presides there and the fact that when people that don't care or are of the opposite opinion see a protest they immediately form a negative opinion. The only way to reach those people is through debate and stuff. Then again, as the movie showed, mass protests (as in Bolivia) do work... so I guess I should purge my wariness. On an aside (sort of) the more I see and hear about the Quebec summit of the Americas protests, the more I wish I'd been there. And not just to have been tear gassed! :)
The other movie I saw was Mean Girls. Tyler and Kari had free passes so Jay and I tagged along. Overall it was a pretty funny little flick that had a nice message. Tim Meadows had amazing comic timing throughout. I was impressed with how they took little jabs at the conventions of that kind of movie. For example, during the "big speech" scene, Tim Meadows character would poke fun at big speeches and question why it was necessary. I'd go see this movie, if only for the smokin' hot babes everywhere!
After the show, we went to Toys R Us, Best Buy and Foody Goody. None of which were any good... I have to poop now... the direct result of the buffet Chinese food...

Short Circuit or Remembering the Lost Friends of the Past

I watched Short Circuit tonight and it brought back a lot of memories. First of all, I got the movie at Wal-Mart (evil) in the discount section... on DVD no less... for 9$! If only I could find Monster Squad now, I'd be a happy man... but ANYway... watching Johnny 5 reminded me of that simpler time when all a movie really needed for me to enjoy it was a few catchy lines to repeat... Short Circuit definitely had a few and upon re-hearing each one I would remember certain times that I watched the movie as a kid and repeated them... I would also remember who I was watching it with at the time... many of those people I have lost touch with... sad... I seem to have lost tough with a lot of people from my youth... The people who at various stages of my development I called "best friends." The only real connection to that distant time I have left (other than family) is Dave. I guess that's just the way with life... stupid reality....
I had a few offers of things to do tonight post work but chose not to do either one. Matt and some boys were seeing Van Helsing but I have no desire to see that... In another section of town, Ryan and some people were going to Coyote's for someone who I do not know's birthday... While I have been itching to go out into the social world again, I have little desire to do it amongst the company of a) strangers and b) Ryan when he is drinking. Ryan is probably the most annoying person I know drunk... he is also annoying when with his girlfriend... If I can avoid those two situations than I am doing alright... To update things, I have decided to talk to Ryan again... But I am not putting up with any shit. If he does the things that I don't like, I'm gonna tell him in no uncertain terms... I also need my Fawlty Towers DVD back..... stupid lending of things.....
Oh well, off to bed!

I get to Train Someone or The ORIGINAL Ladykillers

So I get to train someone at work today... ahh the joy of corrupting people... :) Seriously, I am both the best and the worst trainer ever. I tell it like it is, both in what you have to do and how to avoid doing it. I probably single handedly corrupted an entire floor staff while at Zellers with my tips on avoiding work. On the plus side, I tell people how to do the job well too!
Last night, Dave and I rented the original "Ladykillers" starring Alec Guiness and Peter Sellers. It was pretty good. Very low key and subtle. There were no real huge gag scenes just typical British dark humor. Alec Guiness looked almost like a corpse as he was all pasty and slimy. Peter Sellers was only a bit player but was very Irish. Judging by the trailers for the Coen brothers remake, it seemed to be a little more "obvious." That movie looked more over the top. The robbers were drilling through to a safe, Tom Hanks was a Foghorn Leghorn type southerner, and the woman was a sassy black mama. The British version was much simpler. There was no drilling, being in the house was just a cover, Alec Guiness was just a smooth con man, and the old woman was just a typical sweet old lady. There was a little zaniness, but not "over the top" zaniness. With only having heard things about the remake, I can unsafely say that the original is far superior.
I am going to stop the downloading for a while as it is taking up too much of my time and I have other things that I should be doing...

Delusion or Calgary Wins!

Ok, so I was watching a little of this sex tv thing on the discovery channel late last night and saw something really funny. The show was talking about the debate over sex ed in schools. One camp thinks that sex ed is very important in order to prepare kids and teens for the world they will soon enter. This camp feels that the more education, the better choices kids will make, ie) using condoms, etc. The other camp feels like sex ed is the reason that kids are having sex. This camp feels that if we teach kids about it, they will want to do it more. This camp blames all the teenage pregnancies and other world ills on sex ed in schools. This camp is also coincidentally primarily from the bible belt (although the show did not say this). The funniest moment of the show had to be this girl "expert" they talked to. It was PAINFULLY obvious that she was a "goody-goody" type of person. Anyway, her opinion on the subject was sooooo deluded that it made me laugh out loud. She felt that today's young people were rejecting the sexual lifestyle in droves from all the overexposure and sex ed teaching. Her reasoning's were hilarious. She said that the, and I am not making this up, "return of ballroom dancing proves it." The return of ballroom dancing????? THAT proves that young people are rejecting sex????? What the fuck??? Her other point was that young people were returning to the rules of etiquette more and more... Excuse me? Is this person living on the same planet???? Where the hell are young people returning to the rules of etiquette????? If by return she means escape from, then I'd agree.... How this person got to be an "expert" on ANYTHING is beyond me... She was living in her own little fantasy world... she was kinda cute though.... But the fact of it all is that she was wayyyyy off base. Young people today are not rejecting sex, returning to etiquette, or ballroom dancing in droves. If anything, they are becoming more and more unaware of the dangers of sex while doing it more and more... There was a study done a while ago and the results were staggering. The majority of young people today think such odd things like there is a cure for aids, you can't get std's if you are on the pill, and other assorted idiocies... It's like all the work from sex ed has fallen on deaf ears... Or maybe they don't get it as much anymore... When I was in school, we had it every year from grade 6 on. The facts were drilled into out heads over and over again... I don't want to be all "angry old man" here, but there is something wrong with the youth of today when they don't understand simple facts well enough... Not that the majority of my age group is any better... Come on people, there is more to life than the fucking TV and drinking... you have to learn about stuff or you are just an empty shell going through the motions... ARGH, it's frustrating to see so many people content to live in ignorance...
On a happier note, the Calgary Flames knocked off the Detroit Red Wings in 6 games last night! I watched the whole thing and it ruled! Great goaltending, end to end hockey, etc. There was a little too much hooking and interference for my tastes, but I come from the group that grew up watching Gretsky skate circles around people all day. Any hooking is too much compared to the glory days of the 80's, where the game was nuts fast. There I go again, talking all "old man like." I don't mean too.... but I think it's just a factor of growing up... the idealization of one's own past as being the peak... I'm sure if this was the 80's and I was my current age, I'd be complaining about how the 70's were better or something...
I've been watching a lot more hockey this playoffs then usual. It could be that there are more Canadian teams this year, or maybe that I've had an itch to get back into the game for the past couple of years. While not a star player or anything, I was a decent little "character guy" in my day. I was the guy who would always try, even when down 7 goals, the guy who would rush into the corners, the guy who would pass the puck to make the plays, etc. I was never hardcore enough to want to make a professional career out of it... I never had the drive... Sometimes I wish I had, because I loved playing the game... I loved the feeling on the ice and the rush it gave you... I had to quit because of the rising cost involved in playing, but I wish that I had stuck with it longer... Maybe this winter I'l try to find a league to join... I hope there are some with full pads and whatnot... I'd like to play it full bore again... I don't know if they have those kinds of leagues for my age group....
I haven't done anything with anyone for 6 days now... No one's called me... Poor me.... :(

It's Been a While or Do I Look Fat in This?

Ok, so I haven't been updating all that much in the past week. Maybe the incident on Tuesday burned out the section of my brain that gets motivated to write blog entries.... You'd think that so many days would give me something interesting to write about, but then you'd be wrong...
I worked everyday... Lee and I watched "Dr. Strangelove" on Wednesday... Both Friday and Saturday nights I sat at work hoping that someone would call with something interesting to do... No one did... I tried calling Rob both nights but he had to work/was busy... Dave ended up letting me know about a social for someone from High School. I thought about going for about 3 seconds... Maybe if this person had been someone who I had had some sort of association with beyond simple name recognition... but alas, they were not... also, it was 11pm by the time I found out and I didn't feel like spending 10 bucks for an hour and a half of idle chitchat with people I never talked to in high school... I can't believe that I stayed home by myself BOTH nights of the weekend... Woe is me...
I did manage to do some serious dl'ing. Lots of cool stuff baby!
I also have come to the realization that this past month of relative inactivity has made me a touch out of shape... I think I'm getting a bit of a belly... I don't want that... I need to get back into the groove of working out more... When I was still in class, I would get two serious and kick ass workouts in a week no matter what... I'm talking full weight work out and a half hour on the bike... I haven't been on a bike for about a month... it's starting to show! Then again, it could be my imagination... but I FEEL fatter... it could be that I tend to snack on things idly when I am bored... I'll go from chips and salsa, to cheese and crackers, to peanuts, to cookies, to fruit all in the span of an hour or so... Maybe I should go back to only eating two real meals a day... I never felt bloated then... or maybe I should just get off my lazy ass and get back into the workout groove... I want to get a total gym and maybe a stationary bike so that I don't have to go to the gym... I'm not a huge fan of going to the gym, even though I like working out... I don't like the scene and the crowd... then again, it could just be that I am not all that fond of people in general...
Tonight was my dad's 60th birthday dinner and the family got together to have some Ray and Jerry's. It was some good eating... although next time I will say medium well when I order there... the straight medium was a little too red for my tastes... I did talk shop with my cousin about selling things on ebay, cars and the little we know about them, drugs... etc.. It was kinda cool. My brothers wife is almost due and she is kinda resembling a condominium complex... I wonder if it's twins or something... We adjourned to his place for cake and I'll be damned if his isn't the sweetest house ever... It's freakin' huge and has room for sooooo much cool shit. He wants to put in a bar and a dance floor! Disco parties at my bro's!
Perhaps the bloated and fat feeling that I am having lately is from eating so much... I feel really fat now and I did just get back from a full steak dinner with TWO pieces of kick ass cake... I also have been eating THREE full meals a day, whereas I usually only eat two... ARGH... Just get off that lazy ass and DO something... That's it! I will! Workouts 7 days a week now! Do it in stages... different things each day but always cardio... cardio... cardio... Starting....................

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